I have come to realize how competative I am. I love a challenge, to really push myself. When I do, I can honestly do anything. I have proven this time and time again. so.... why is it that once I get going on the road to success I sabotage myself?
I hate losing, so if I quit or just stop all together then I don't have to say I failed or even that I lost because I simply didn't try. How can I feel that dreaded feeling of disappointment when I'm the one that choose to throw in the towel?
Why do I hate losing so much? It's ok to lose now and then. Just try again right? I don't know.
I do know that I like to prove people wrong. I like to make bets for little rewards. It has to be against someone tho not just against myself. I love the feeling of winning.
I'm going to use this to motivate me, To keep me going, to push myself harder then I ever have before. I bet you I can shave 5 minutes off my 5 km race time for the fathers day run. :)
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